what do you call this.

i became the person i dreaded i'd become.
and somehow i knew it would happen, it would just be a matter of time until i got slapped across the face with the realization of what i was doing.
and i deserve it.
but i was happy. 
so that makes me selfish. 
and my confusing self is confusing me and i don't want to make decisions anymore.

▲natt