So it's the return of school. not just school but university. first year... hollaaaaaa. i've had three official full days at school this week & by the third day i'd made so many new friends. that's what i was really looking forward to [heading to university.] There are 21 of us all together in my musical theatre program. we all have the exact same classes together every single day [mon-fri], besides english. it's weird to think that these are the same 21 people that i'm going to be going to school with everyday for the next 3 years [unless some people drop out, but no new people are allowed into our program]. we're already just about family... in no time it'll be official. hehe. i hope everyone is finding school okay... it's only the first week, so if it's a little rough just give it a little time & try to stay positive. that's what i'm doing. and focusing. lots of focus and hard work. i want to succeed.
i made it official about a week ago to hand in my payment for the provincial miss teen canada world pageant in MARCH '11. it's a weekend long pageant that consists of one day of practice & training for everything that we will need to know. the next day is the pageant & this is the day where the ball gowns, swimwear, etc will all happen, as well as the crowning of miss BC and the finalists that will move onto the nationals pageant in toronto. i have high hopes for myself, just 'cause it's important to stay confident [not cocky]. i know this will be a life changing experience whether or not i make it to toronto. i already feel so blessed to have been chosen as a finalist to go the BC pageant. mind you, it is still quite a ways from now till MARCH. i need to stay focused on school work in the time being and things that are most important at the moment.
The commute to & from school is absolutely ridiculous. on wednesday it took me 3 hrs to get home from school, meaning i got home at 8:30pm. i was exhausted. i think that's one of things about commuting to school that will tire me out from day to day. i'll have to stick it out though & make the most of it & just continue to work hard & 'eyes on the prize', that way my mind is set on pulling through the tough times.
I received an e-mail this morning that I am a finalist for the BC provincial competition [in march of '11 in Vancouver] for Miss Teen Canada. i'm totally thrilled! They pick several finalist girls from each province at the regional competition and then have them compete in the national pageant for the role of Miss Teen Canada World. Each finalist receives a title, sash and crown and will 'reign' for one year in her city. The big idea behind this pageant isn't to drool over pretty dresses and gorgeous faces, it's about personality, knowing about you're platform and being an individual who wants to make a positive difference. A platform is basically fighting for a certain cause such as breast cancer, AIDS, depression, etc. My platform would be for people with eating disorders-- having a family member who has been fighting it for the past few years. It's heartbreaking to watch someone slowly deteriorate because of such a disease and feeling their pain and trying so hard not to give up on them. Aside from that, there are modeling and acting opportunities plus plenty of exposure if one makes it to the National pageant. I'm looking forward to presenting my talent which would most likely be a musical theatre performance. I also look forward to meeting many of the girls striving for the same position as myself and learn about their story. There only seems to be one issue at the moment. The cost. The large number is suppose to cover paying the camera people, the food, make-up artists and other random things [so the pageant can take place] AS WELL AS going towards charity. Because I am a student going into post secondary [starting next week] and in that time I will only be able to work small hours at my job, I only have a certain amount of money to go around for extra activities that I'd like to attend or take part in. The cost to enter in this pageant is quite a hand full and I'm concerned that I won't be able to have enough money for both university [which is already quite costly] and the MTC Pageant. The payment is due is about 2 and a half days. I'm hoping i'll be able to find supporters or 'sponsors' that are willing to help me out, even if it's something very very small [anything helps], otherwise I may have to turn down this opportunity.
I'm leaving this all in God's hands, praying that if this is what he wants for me, it will happen. If not, then I have to be accepting of the fact that perhaps it just isn't the right time.
Our last warm day ends today & as depressed as i've been about it for the past week, i've finally been able to accept that i will now be able to bundle myself up in layers, warm knits and combat boots. i like fall, perhaps not so much winter cause i find winter too chilly & then it gets to the point where i don't care how i look, i just want to keep myself from frostbite. hehe. i went shopping yesterday con mi madre. we went to bellingham in the states and found zero potential clothing finds besides a pair of moccasins, perfume and wallet that i bought. i still needed to find a nice, warm, coat for fall/winter & a few others pieces for keeping warm so we headed back to van and i invested my mother bought me a big, chunky, knitted, button up [half way] sweater. it was, my friends, love at first sight. found the knit at zara. bought a blue, baggy blouse and long, flowy, grey skirt at H&M. and that was it. i've got all my school books stacked on my desk and i've flipped through a few of them. i must say i have the slightest feeling of excitement in my veins. good luck to all you going back to school. here we go again..
