Insta lately...

 black black black orange.

a "healthy" treat.

eye spy a setting sun.

in mid-hunt for a good turtleneck.

 knees have feelings too. at least mine do.

attempt at sultry. or something.

▲natt

The long cardigan // The turtle neck .

THE LONG CARDIGAN

ACNE - Raya Mohair

$370

ASOS - Vila Longline Cardigan 

$45

HELMUT LANG - Long Cardigan 

$470

THE TURTLE NECK

ACNE - Zola Merino 

$390

ACNE - Loyal Wool

$320

ZARA - Turtle Neck Sweater

$70

The long cardigan is really starting to grow on me, guys.

[no one likes a cold butt in the winter time]...

And turtle necks (especially the thinner sweaters)- fun for wearing underneath thicker knits.

...and if either of the above is oversized- it's in my good books. 

▲natt

non-sleeplessness.

"i used to think distance sucked.

i assumed i'd feel that way with you when you left.

and it's not that i'm glad that you're gone.

because i'm not.

but i am quite content with you being over there and me, here.

i think we both appreciate the space.

but there are some evenings when i lie awake cold and i need something to cuddle-

 i think of you and picture forty peaceful winks.

and for a moment you're no longer over there. 

you are here."

▲natt

The black staple

"Fines vest", black "neutra" tunic & "N" necklace- Oak + Fort, reptile print leather pants- Topshop, patent leather boots- Zara

Wednesday at work [Oak + Fort] we received a new shipment of clothing.

i came in to work yesterday & went around expressing my adoration for all the new pieces.

this long black vest [The "Fines Vest"] is one of my favorites. 

this will be my fall staple.

and, hello... it's BLACK.

ding ding ding...

▲natt

Today my mother asked me what a "homies" was.

vintage leather jacket- USED, black tank & boots- Zara, trouser pants- Aritzia, toque- eBay

 i cringe, you guys.

i cringe at the sight of my hair.

this ugly "ombre" as everyone calls it is becoming my most favorite hated hairstyle. 
let me just clear the air and forewarn you that i did not do anything purposely to my hair for it to look like this.
story is: i had blonde hair a year ago and eventually dyed it back dark brown and from washing my hair over time the brown faded and slowly began to show my blonde from before.

i used to be neutral about the whole hairstyle and possibly even liked it for a short period of time.

but i'm over it. i'm sooooo over itttt.

so what? 

so i need a dye and a chop. badly. 

if anyone wants to step up to the plate to take on this hair, hola at me.

on a side note... 

i finally got the chance to wear my (new to my wardrobe) vintage leather jacket today.

bring on the clouds... and the rain!

sweater weather i'm soo ready for yeww (...since, like, 2 months ago).

▲natt

slish slash i was cuttin ma pants...

black cardigan & "N" necklace- Oak + Fort, tank & boots- Zara, hat- gojane, denim & belt- [old]

i lived like a hermit today- i slept in till 1 and lazed around the house.

on a regular day of my busy bee life i'd be running off somewhere into town or downtown, or else going to work. 

but because today i could do whatever i felt, i planned to kick my feet up. 

it feels slightly strange having to do nothing for a full day.

i don't think i could do it for more than once a week.

there's just so much out there that i could be doing.

needless to say, it was nice to take a breather. 

-on the topic of "doing things" i preoccupied myself the other night by cuttin' and rippin' the crap outta these jeans.

...

my mom: WOW natt those are some big holes you made.

me: exactly my point.

...

ps. this is the black cardigan i was blabbing about in a recent post.

i'm really beginning to warm up to it.

▲natt

Working the heart

"I lay down again, facing him. I saw the clock above the door and had a sudden sense of time running out. I took his arm and wrapped it tightly around me, threading my own arms and legs around him so that we were tightly entwined. I took his hand- the good one- and wrapped my fingers in his, kissing the knuckles as I felt him squeeze mine. His body was so familiar to me now. I knew it in a way I had never known Patrick's- it's strengths and vulnerabilities, its scars and scents. I placed my face so close to his that his features became indistinct, and I began to lose myself in them. I stroked his hair, his skin, his brow with my fingertips, tears sliding unchecked down my cheeks, my nose against his, and all the time he watched me silently, studying me intently as if he were storing each molecule of me away. He was already retreating, withdrawing to somewhere I couldn't reach him.

I kissed him, trying to bring him back. I kissed him and let my lips rest against him so that our breath mingled and the tears from my eyes became salt on his skin, and I told myself that, somewhere, tiny particles of him would become tiny particles of me, ingested, swallowed, alive, perpetual. I wanted to press every bit of me against him. I wanted to will something into him. I wanted to give him every bit of life I felt and force him to live."

- (from the book i just read... don't want to spoil it for others who haven't yet read it)

▲natt

Bits & pieces from this week...

1. pretty purple orchids via mi madre 

2. new silver rings from Oak + Fort!

3, 4, 5. put some effort into getting ready for once

6. new shiny boots from Zara

7. all black (with a hiinnnt of white) mannequins at Oak + Fort

This week i worked my TUSH off.

tomorrow is my first day off & i'm going to treat myself to some good ol' relaxation ;)

▲natt

front 2 back

in the evening i threw on a long, black cardigan & tied the denim button-up around my waist.

i purchased my first cardigan in YEARS. 

i don't wear cardigans. they're not my "thing".

but we sell this wicked long, black cardi at Oak + Fort & i for the fun thought i'd throw it on over top of my outfit. and...

so i guess take back whatever negative thoughts i've had about them in the past ;P

they really aren't so bad after all. 

▲natt

on a blunt note.

shall we chit chat about my gorgeous fan in each and every one of these photos?

or should i sweep that one under the rug.

hmm...

actually. it's about time it went back to hibernating.

the overly warm, uncomfortable, sleepless evenings in my bedroom are long gone.

it's time to be realistic, people. 

in with fall.

out with summer.

▲natt

haute off the rackZ...

shorts- Aritzia, turtle neck crop top- eBay, converse shoes, leather vest (Bian)- Oak + Fort

How stoked am i that we got the Bian Leather Vest back in stock at Metro Town Oak + Fort?

hooo... i'll say a good 12/10.

...12.

everyone has been asking whether we'd get it back in &... how could we not?

get your hands on one before they're gone.

i'm serious, these guys are selling like cute little baby bunnies.

ps. a taste of our fall/winter wear (1st photo).

getting new shipment in weekly!! 

eeeep. 

▲natt

september 4th

 denim biker jacket- Community Thrift, (p)leather skirt- Sheinside (old), cap- Aritzia, bag- Zara, necklace- Loft 82

today i bore my bare legs because in another couple weeks or so it'll be considered a heinous crime.

▲natt

She repeated, "I do not write".

"the mere thought of your scent.

and my heart to rest on the bottomless floor.

 like a childhood bedtime storybook. familiar, yet far.

my memory flashes back to the night on the field.

you gave up your sweater, naturally, as i was shivering. 

you mentioned the strange, starry sky- something was different, and it made you feel uneasy. 

i kicked around sand and somehow, through my chattering teeth, reminisced aloud my past years playing on that field.

there was so much i wanted in that moment, merely frozen.

at some point you awkwardly put your arms around me to keep me warm, we hugged.

i want to kiss you, i thought. yet somehow i couldn't.

 kiss me, kiss me, my thoughts kicked repeatedly- giddy and naive.

but too soon you let go, glanced at me and we walked.

 bravely i took your hand in mine and held it for a brief second.

from your hand there was warmth.

 from your heartbeat- unease.

and you let your hand go- as if to search for something else to do with it.

only, nothing.

and at that moment i knew."

▲natt